My head hurts.......

My head hurts even more now.

Took some panadol. Gonna sleep for a while

I GOTTA LIFT.....

My assignment is due, my head hurts.

Can't stop thinking about so many thinks. I cannot afford to fail in what i have set up to pursue, it is not an option to fail. I want to stay here, i want to live a life that i am proud of.

I have to be determine, accomplish what i set out to achieve. I once told myself i was meant for great things to happen. I have to believe again.

I have to sacrifice, i have to keep looking at my target. I want to live my life well, to the fullest, with balance.

I want to be person i have always wanted to be.....

A lot of work needs to be done. I have one shot, i have to give my all.

Lose focus and i will fall back.

I slowly starting to realize what life is kinda like.

I have struggle and work for what i want, i have to make sacrifices

Everything i gain is from what i sow.

Sometimes i feel so left behind, feel so useless, feel upset that i am not as good as i thought i was. I cannot dwell any longer. I must fight it, I must not give up.

I need fire, I need the will of a thousand man.

I need to be a Robson or Keane, I have to inspire........

I am clutching on anything can right now.

My life begins today, everyday, I want to live it right.....

I want to feel inspired, motivated, i want to move with purpose.

I want to believe, i want to chase dreams, do the impossible and yet survived in this harsh world.

I was always living in a bubble and now i am thrust into the deep end. I am being swept away by the currents of it all. I can't give up, i want to face the current. I have to be strong. I have to screamed it all out.

FIGHT, FIGHT, FIGHT FIGHT



You gotta
Lift yourself up above all the hurt
Don't give in
Wipe your eyes and remember
You're better than this
Let them know
That they took their best shot
And missed
C'mon and lift......

Sat on a roof......

I'm not on a roof....
I wish i was though........
Feel like sitting on the balcony, the weather is kinda hot.

Ordinary World - Duran Duran

When i hear this song i feel a tinged of sadness mixed with amusement. I guess its got to do with the George Best video i saw on youtube last year.

It also reflects a lot on how i feel at this moment.

" What is happening to it all?
Crazy some say-
Where is the life that I recognise?
Gone away.

But I won't cry for yesterday.
There's an ordinary world somehow I have to find.
And as I try to make my way to the ordinary world
I will learn to survive".

Rest in Peace Bestie.